AUTHOR: Monica Lee TITLE: Back from my journey DATE: 7:29 PM ----- BODY:

So I am back from London-and a little frustrated. I can't quite wrap my brain around why I have any right what so ever to feel sorry for myself. And I don't think that is the right way to put it-I am not feeling sorry for myself. I feel the need to expand my vision for myself so I can leave flying completely. There are days I don't mind but there are times that I feel deep in my bones that I have over stayed my welcome as a flight attendant and should not be there anymore. This was the second trip in a row that my flight was diverted for some reason or another in the middle of the night. It happens, I know this-I have been doing it for over 16 years but when you turn a plane around before you cross the Atlantic Ocean you begin to wonder what kind of odd "office" you work. My flight that was scheduled to land at 9am ended up in London at 5pm. Talk about tired. I was reading Joel Osteens book (I went to college with his sister) Living Your Best Life Now and I couldn't help but come the terms with the fact that I am not living up to my full potential as a flight attendant. I want more even though there are times I really enjoy it inspite of myself. Joel talks about "expanding your vision". I know this is my year for just that and sitting at Gander Airport at 3:30am with a kind of drove it home. So I will read more-search my heart more and I will get a hold of my larger vision!

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